Two years! // Continuation of yesterday's post.

My blog actually turned two on May 11, and I was too lazy to post about it. ;) So I decided to post now, because...Well, I don't know. I just had something on my heart that I wanted to share with you guys.

So last year, the day before my blog turned one, I wrote this post. I don't really think you should read it, unless you really want a laugh/to be baffled by how horrible my writing was back then. ;) 

And I was looking at the way I wrote. I could have improved it...But I was just being myself. As I read, I thought something along the lines of "Wow, haven't I improved?" to myself as I read that, but then I realized something...I kept scrolling down, and read the last comment left by Carolyn. 

"Hannah, God made you well. Simply. You are amazing, and you needn't change who you are because your fans like it. Think about what you like, because this is YOUR blog. I'll always be a fan, and always have been.

~Carolyn"

Instead of changing the way I wrote for the better -- easier-to-understand ;) writing, yet still being myself -- I just stopped being myself and wrote differently. I guess I gradually just...floated away from writing like myself. When I read that post, though, and read that comment, I finally realized that.

I guess that I was trying too hard to make my blog/writing look professional. I wanted to impress everybody, I was worried about people thinking it was silly or boring or weird, and...Well, I think you get it. 

I don't want to write always being afraid what people think of my for being silly or weird.  I used to be afraid of what people would think of me when they read my blog. I don't listen to popular music or read popular books. What if they didn't like me for that? I couldn't post pictures of myself, or my age. What if they thought I was weird? What if they thought I was the only one doing that?

There's plenty of other bloggers like this out there. With smaller blogs where they just come to be themselves. To be honest, those are some of my favorite blogs. I enjoy going to a blog where I feel like I'm just listening to a friend chatting, rather than reading some solemn, perfect writing. You know, it's okay to have a small point-and-shoot and a simple blog design. Sometimes people take absolutely fantastic pictures with just those little cameras. Yet if you don't have such a fantastic blog design, expensive camera, and all that, you might not be considered as good to some? 

Okay, sorry if I sounded harsh. Just making my point. There's anything wrong with having a nice blog design and camera. There's plenty of super nice bloggers who have those things. I'm wasn't thinking of anyone in particular when I just wrote that, and I'm sorry if it came across that way. It just kind of feels that way sometimes.

So, I'm excited to start posting more and writing authentically. Want to join me? I'd love to hear what you have to say! :)

-Hannah