Rain and deer

I know this picture looks funny. It's because I edited it. I kind of like it, though...It kind of looks like a rainbow.

I couldn't think of what to call this post, and then all of a sudden I realized I was posting about rain and deer. And I typed "reindeer" into the post title box. But then I renamed it "rain and deer"...So please ignore the corny title.

I thought I'd post about what's been going on lately. I've hand-fed a few deer and it rained. My life is boring.

My brother has this job where he gets to feed deer and care for our neighbor's house while they're gone...He goes every day. I come along every time to take pictures, and one time I got to feed deer by hand. Which I've never really done before, so it was pretty cool. ;)

And yes, it rained for the first time in...well, for the first time since last spring. Haha. Actually, it didn't just rain...There was a bunch of thunder & lightning, too. But I always just say it rained. 

This morning, Mom was planting beans and I took a picture. Yes, I know. That was random.

Mom also made pumpkin & chocolate chip muffins this morning, which I did not want to try, but when I had one, I could not believe how good they were! I should share the recipe with you guys sometime...

I love everything that comes with autumn... It is my absolute favorite season.

What's yours?

Yes, I actually did that.

I was really tired last night, writing yesterday's post, and...I wrote something twice. Oops.

Just some thoughts

I was reading today about what kind of qualities people appreciate in a blogger. Everybody wanted different things. Some said they liked funny writing. Some said they liked more writing and words. Some people liked fashion and other people liked art.

I want to please everybody, but do I take really good pictures? No. I like to write more. I like to write more. I like to write about stuff that might not interest anyone else, but that I still like to write.

What do you do when you feel like you're not exactly pleasing others? Wait it out, or just change your posts?

My faith.

I haven't posted about God or my faith for forever. I've read a lot of inspiring posts about faith, but I haven't written one. I just don't know what to say, to be honest.

I think more about this than I talk about it, but I don't want it that way.

But there's one thing. Sometimes I don't act like a Christian. A lot of the time, I don't act like a Christian. Sometimes I'm embarrassed to talk about my faith. I feel like a hypocrite sometimes because I say that I'm a Christian, but I don't read my Bible much at all. I'm just being honest - I fail a lot.

I read today about how we search for our purpose and we think it's out there waiting for us, while all along our purpose is just to serve God. Just love Him, obey Him, and well...You get it. It affected me. Enough to inspire me to write this post.

I'm not sure how to end this. I'm just saying I want to be more than someone who says they're a Christian and that they go to church. I want to be a genuine Christian. I want to serve God.

-Hannah

Actually, I changed my mind

Yes, it's true. I changed my mind.

I am still going to blog.

I'm not really sure how to say this, because if you're reading this right now, you're probably pretty shocked. If you're not in the mood to read a long post, then I'll make it short (I'm not in the mood to write a long, flowing post either!).

Thanks for staying with me, even though I'm coming back after saying I wouldn't be posting for a while. I'm so sorry I ever even told you guys that. And now I can't guarantee posts every other day, but now that I want to post, I'll try to. :)

Love,

Hannah

Time to say goodbye.

Okay, guys. I've been thinking about this for a long time now, but I just didn't want to do it. But I decided to write it now before I put it off even more.

I think it's time for me to say goodbye. It's just...I don't want blog anymore. It's so hard to get people to read your blog and post something that most people will like, yet still be you. I can't tell you how tiring inspiration, golden hour, Pinterest, the word lovely, and everybody changing their blog names to first and middle name, have gotten. I'm tired of everybody owning a DSLR, a film camera, vintage clothing, whatever. I'm not saying it's bad to own any trendy items, but if you never loved them in the first place, please don't say you do!


The word lovely (which I used to think was not so bad, but now I'm tired of it), British spellings (what's wrong with 'favorite'...?), and forgive me for saying this, but...Kinfolk. I've never read it (but I do know what it's about), and I can't say I will, because it's not my thing. Sorry guys, but I'm tired of all these trends. I've never loved many of them, and honestly, I don't want to be the only one around here who loves American Girl and dislikes the word lovely.

So someday I might return, but for now, I just won't be posting. I'm sorry, and I will miss you guys, but it'll probably be better for me this way. I'll still read blogs, just (..hopefully) not as much. ;) Thanks for sticking with me all this time and reading my blog. You're the best. :)

Love,
Hannah

Just a note...

Okay, so I'm not really sure what to say right now. I haven't posted in so long, but I don't want to promise more posts to you guys because I'm not really sure if I'll keep my promise.

I feel terrible about all of this. I used to have a million good post ideas every week, now I'm lucky if I have one idea a week. I feel like the harder I try to think of things to post about, the more the quality of my posts decreases.

So I guess I'll try to post more now, but no promises.

Thanks for staying with me, guys. :)

See you soon!

Happy {late} Fourth of July! (& Re-evaluating)

Happy late Fourth of July, guys! I hope you have fun and safe day yesterday. We did nothing, but I didn't really mind...We never really celebrate it that much anyway. :)

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Oh, and one more thing. You know how my title also mentions re-evaluating? I know you're probably groaning and thinking, "Haven't you already written several of those, Hannah?!" And you're right, I have. But this one's different. I'd really appreciate it if you'd take the time to read.

Lately I've been noticing that a lot of people in this little corner of the blogging world seem to share the same interests, like the same things, visit the same websites, etc. I mean, I/we are all so caught up in photography and taking beautiful images full of emotion, and Pinterest, all that...I sometimes forget about our other interests in the real world, outside of blogging. For example, I used to post more about American Girl, but I slowly began to notice that to others, that wasn't really that cool anymore. So I stopped.

It's hard for me to be writing this, because what I'm about to say is something that I'm not really sure I'll...do: I want to post more about American Girl/things I like. At least I'll try. But will I? Or will I just get discouraged and disappointed in myself for being so...different?

I've made up my mind to try. I'm just going to try blogging differently, focusing more on my own interests, even if they're not what everyone likes. These kinds of posts have probably gotten pretty old to you guys by now, and I don't really blame you. But please, just...Bear with me here. :]

Oh, and please just ignore any grammar mistakes in here...I'm too tired lazy to look it over and change anything. ;)

Love,
-Hannah

A few favorite pictures

Just thought I'd share a few favorite pictures, just because I haven't posted in forever. I didn't really have time last week, but now I do. So I promise you can expect more posts now. :)

The above where from when we went to Six Flags a couple weeks ago! :D

Love,

-Hannah

Webcam pictures and paintings of birds.

I couldn't think of a better or ... tackier title, so I guess I'm okay with the one I have now. And it describes my post perfectly.

So anyway, a while back I was looking at the DIY section of Under the Sycamore and I found a tutorial on how to do a simple bird painting. We had everything we needed except canvases and scrapbook paper, so we went to Hobby Lobby and got some stuff. Today I finished it and I took some pictures with the webcam.

Oh, and by the way, you should definitely check out Under the Sycamore. It's one of my favorite sites. It's put together so simply yet very prettily. :)

It (the painting) looks better in real life. Promise. :)

So yeah. Just a random update post. I don't really have anything exciting to post about except for...um...a painting. A bird painting. We've rearranged my room a little and I got a new bed...It's actually a pallet bed. Sort of like this one. We're still working on it, though. I might post pictures when it's finished. :)

Now we need to hang up my silhouette!

Two years! // Continuation of yesterday's post.

My blog actually turned two on May 11, and I was too lazy to post about it. ;) So I decided to post now, because...Well, I don't know. I just had something on my heart that I wanted to share with you guys.

So last year, the day before my blog turned one, I wrote this post. I don't really think you should read it, unless you really want a laugh/to be baffled by how horrible my writing was back then. ;) 

And I was looking at the way I wrote. I could have improved it...But I was just being myself. As I read, I thought something along the lines of "Wow, haven't I improved?" to myself as I read that, but then I realized something...I kept scrolling down, and read the last comment left by Carolyn. 

"Hannah, God made you well. Simply. You are amazing, and you needn't change who you are because your fans like it. Think about what you like, because this is YOUR blog. I'll always be a fan, and always have been.

~Carolyn"

Instead of changing the way I wrote for the better -- easier-to-understand ;) writing, yet still being myself -- I just stopped being myself and wrote differently. I guess I gradually just...floated away from writing like myself. When I read that post, though, and read that comment, I finally realized that.

I guess that I was trying too hard to make my blog/writing look professional. I wanted to impress everybody, I was worried about people thinking it was silly or boring or weird, and...Well, I think you get it. 

I don't want to write always being afraid what people think of my for being silly or weird.  I used to be afraid of what people would think of me when they read my blog. I don't listen to popular music or read popular books. What if they didn't like me for that? I couldn't post pictures of myself, or my age. What if they thought I was weird? What if they thought I was the only one doing that?

There's plenty of other bloggers like this out there. With smaller blogs where they just come to be themselves. To be honest, those are some of my favorite blogs. I enjoy going to a blog where I feel like I'm just listening to a friend chatting, rather than reading some solemn, perfect writing. You know, it's okay to have a small point-and-shoot and a simple blog design. Sometimes people take absolutely fantastic pictures with just those little cameras. Yet if you don't have such a fantastic blog design, expensive camera, and all that, you might not be considered as good to some? 

Okay, sorry if I sounded harsh. Just making my point. There's anything wrong with having a nice blog design and camera. There's plenty of super nice bloggers who have those things. I'm wasn't thinking of anyone in particular when I just wrote that, and I'm sorry if it came across that way. It just kind of feels that way sometimes.

So, I'm excited to start posting more and writing authentically. Want to join me? I'd love to hear what you have to say! :)

-Hannah

Why I haven't been posting.

You know, now that I think about it, I kind of know why I haven't been posting very much.

It's because I couldn't think of what to say, or like how to put things. And maybe it was kind of because I  felt out of place writing where everybody could see.

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It might have also been because I couldn't think of what to post about. Anything I had to say was boring, and I knew/thought I wouldn't get any comments. I don't entirely blog for myself -- part of what I want to accomplish in blogging is to encourage & and inspire -- but I don't need to impress others. When I first started a blog, I didn't really care about that. I just thought it would be cool to have a blog and stuff.

I want to be able to look back on all my older posts and remember things. I don't want to blog about perfect stuff. My life isn't really exciting. I don't travel a lot, have a nice camera, or live in a really cool place. I don't have anybody to take pictures of, I don't post pictures of myself, and I can't share my age. But you know? That's okay. I won't let that hold me back.

-Hannah

Lately.

 (above two: my room)

(this is my new doll from American Girl..I named her Carolyn. :))

I've finally redesigned the blog, and since it feels like summer's officially begun, I'll be making an effort  to post more often. Sorry for neglecting my little space here - I promise I'll try to make an effort to keep it up more often. :)

love,

-Hannah.

PS. wanna see what we found on our porch yesterday?

yep. a tarantula. it wasn't too small, either.

Inside my mind

Today was my last day of art class (for those who don't know what I'm taking about...I take an art class and love it :)). I finished up my last project, sort of in a hurry (I'm amazed I actually got it done!), and I was really pleased with how it turned out. It's my silhouette, only my head is filled with random objects, words, song lyrics, doodles, quotes, and everything else inside my mind.

I'm really sorry about all the triangles and stuff...I used them to block out some 'personal'/badly drawn stuff. ;) Like the year I was born, my last name, etc.

I was going for a more vibrant and colorful look, and I think I might have made it a bit too colorful, but   it's okay. :) Mostly I just used a pencil to sketch stuff out and erase what I didn't like, which took an unusually long time. Then I outlined it with a black sharpie pen and filled it in with more colorful sharpies. 

By the way, all the pictures in the collages are straight out of camera - sorry for the terrible quality.

Do you like it? 

you're beautiful.

Today -- yesterday, really -- I was thinking about inner beauty. Not just being pretty inside and all that -- and I'm not saying that's bad -- but just a little bit .. 'deeper'.

We look in the mirror so often and we feel like we're not pretty enough. But we're made in God's image. You may not be beautiful enough in the world's eyes, but you're made in God's image and that makes you beautiful enough already.

You're beautiful. God loves you. I don't know why some people just can't realize that. They just don't seem to understand how much God loves them, that God made them beautiful. God has a very special purpose for you. If you live your life thinking you're not good enough, or not pretty enough .. Well, that's just not part of His plan!  Remember: you're worth more than gold. Don't forget.

-Hannah

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I'm pretty sure that most of us like photography. But yesterday I started to think about how before I started blogging, photography didn't even matter to me.

Before I go on, I'd like to say that if photography is your passion, then go for it! But what doesn't make sense to me is how when most of us started blogging, that's when we started to enjoy photography. I don't think too many of us actually loved taking pictures before we began our blogs. I know I didn't - the only reason I began to use my dad's point-and-shoot was because I wanted to take pictures like other bloggers did.

What do you think?

Also, all the pictures in this post are soocs, so I realize that they aren't the best ever. ;)

Blooming

It always gets hotter here in Texas when spring rolls around. That's why I've never really liked this season all that much. After all, we're in in need of rain already. I miss all the green grass.

Is it green where you live?

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My birthday is in less than two weeks, and I'm a teeny little bit excited. ;) Sadly, I'm not allowed to share with you how old I'll be -- sorry! 

Just a quick little update to let you guys know I'm still alive -- sorry for not posting for eleven days. It sounds so cheesy, but I feel awful. Forgive me?

On another note, the photo above was edited with Lightroom. I know it's not the best picture ever, but I was just testing out different options. ;) I'm pretty sure my trial is almost completely used up now, though. :(

Hannah

I love double exposures.

I'm sure you've noticed that double exposures are becoming quite popular! Seriously, I've been finding them on almost every blog I read. I'm not that good, but it's really fun to play around with two images. :)









What do you think about double exposures? :)

ps. like the new design? I promise, I won't change it again for a while. sorry I'm so indecisive.